Monday, June 18, 2012
IT WAS THE ABUSE BECAUSE I WAS UNWANTED BY THE FAMILY
Biology servers us right all it takes is a man and a female and it takes two to tangle,then why both the parents who both denied me at birth had no kind of love for me at all. I really don’t know if they are really my parents or not and why did they torture me for several years for nothing and for nothing I didn’t do to any of them people; I started kindergarten class in 1961 and they interrupted my stay in kindergarten school and I was not allowed to complete school, and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and that was not my fault either and there was a plan to keep me in
school untill I reach age 28 by the time I got out of school, I am so glad it did not happen that way because these people in this family hated me to the point to where everybody in the family was able to go to school and work and get paid without problems, I was the one who they picked on. they blamed me for things that the grown adults did before I even thought of being born and I could have died before I was born and what the hell did I have to do with the way I was born and why did them people bring me in this family when they never did want nothing to do with me from beginning, all the siblings are dark tan and brown skin and I am the only one in this family who has an ivory white skin and blonde hair and why did some of Carmella Barber people pick on me and call me all kinds of racist and derogatory names and dancing eyes and all I ever heard from them family people was Charlene is an ALBINO THIS AND AN ALBINO THAT and them people in this family always told me to dye that SHIT BLACK AND I DYED MY HAIR BROWN FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND I WAS FORCED TO WEAR BROWN WIGS AND I DID MY VERY BEST TO FIT IN THIS DAMN KIND OF FAMILY AND Carmella Barber always hated me because she never wanted me for her child and she isolated me and her sister Clara Pumphrey always controlled me behind my back and she is very dangerously sneaky against me and all of them treated me like child and they always did meddle in all of my personal business, they did get my business behind my back and they meddled in all of my afairs and all of them people pose a serious threat to my safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety and them people man handled me and they man handled my son Alexander so bad to the degree and point where them people damn near killed him in July-28-2008 and what the hell did a man Sherman get in my son Alexander’s face and ask him is he keeping his nose clean look at all the other people in this family they not keeping their nose clean and all them people do is talk about me and my children and pick on me and my kids because them people did not want me in this family well I didn’t tell the so called mother and father to bring me to this family I didn’t just walk in their family that is not fair to me and that is not fair to my children. and why did people put bloody chicken bones in my door way and under my window when I was paying rent at 8921 N 91st Street in Milwaukee WI and when I relocated from that address in 2001, less than one month them people suddenly start putting citations on me with a vehicle that I never did operate and I never did drive the Van at all. all of them people did that to me on purpose and they really did do that deliberately and all them people did mary me off right behind my back and for several years them people always treated me like I was lacking in intelligence and like I did not know no better. This don"t make no damn sense at all; I got taken to a family by people who really never wanted me bring me into a situation that is very dangerous, wrong and very unfair to me and my children; I didn’t really deserve that at all and nobody bothered to explain nothing to me at all for several years and for that damn length of time and not one single person didn’t even bother to ask no kind of questions of what is the problem and what did I or what did Charlene do if anything at all. and it is only right, Hey I am not wrong at all, that is criminal torture and that causes mental abuse and a lot of disstress and heart problems and stress, and STRESS REALLY DO KILL. ESPECIALLY IT’S NOT MY FAUL AND THE FAMILY DID ABANDONED ME FOR DECADES NOW. I DIDN’T NEED THIS FAMILY FOR MY GUARDIAN THEY DON’T CARE NOTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL AND I AND MY CHILDREN DON’T NEED THESE FAMILY PEOPLE FOR THEIR GUARDIAN EITHER THEM PEOPLE IN THIS DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY CHILDREN EITHER. ALL OF THAT IS CAUSED BY VERY HATEFUL, VERY EVIL,MEAN,VERY HOSTILE AND VERY VERY CRUEL PEOPLE, IT IS VERY WRONG FROM THE VERY BEGINNING, TO BLAME AND PICK ON CHILDREN, ESPECIALLY GROWN ADULTS, YOU DON’T BLAME THE CHILD AND YOU DON’T BEAT UP ON THE CHILD, DON’T BEAT THE CHILDREN UP.ALL THEY GOSSIPED ABOUT ME AND THEM PEOPLE SPREADED ALL KINDS OF UGLY RUMARS ABOUT ME SINCE BIRTH FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND FOR THAT LENGTH OF TIME BUT EVERYBODY FORGET I WAS BORN AN INNOCENT TOO AND MY CHILDREN WERE BORN INNOCENT BABIES TOO.
Monday, June 4, 2012
THIS IS NOTHING BUT UNPROVOKED ABUSE AND UNJUSTIFIED PUNISHMENT FROM THE START; then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn't deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children's father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from the start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the sa
this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start,then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn't deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children's father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from the start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don't seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don't even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I'm not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that's not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don't have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don't even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don't have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don't talk to me and the siblings don't want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don't feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children; they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON'T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON'T. NO THEY DON'T.
me way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don't seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don't even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I'm not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that's not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don't have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don't even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don't have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don't talk to me and the siblings don't want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don't feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children; they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON'T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON'T. NO THEY DON'T.
this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start,then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn't deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children's father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from the start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don't seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don't even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I'm not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that's not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don't have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don't even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don't have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don't talk to me and the siblings don't want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don't feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children; they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON'T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON'T. NO THEY DON'T.
me way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don't seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don't even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I'm not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that's not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don't have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don't even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don't have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don't talk to me and the siblings don't want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don't feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children; they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON'T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON'T. NO THEY DON'T.
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