I WAS NEVER ON THE HIGH HORSE, I HAD REAL BAD BREAKS FROM THE START

I do not feel right because the adult parents didn't want me for their daughter, the man denied me and said I wasn't his baby, turn his back on me and walked out of the hospital and the women turn against me too, everybody did pick on me for several years, the family people did call me all kinds of racist derogatory names like: ALBINO, WHITE GIRL, YELLOW GAL, DANCING EYES, WHITE BITCHES AND YELLOW BITCHES AND THEY ROBBED ME AND THEY RESTRICTED ME OF MY PERSONAL FREEDOM. THEY DID FOLLOW AND THEY DID TRACK ME DOWN LIKE I AM A RARE ALBINO ANIMAL AND THE FAMILY PEOPLE DID STALK ME ON MY TELEPHONE, THE FACT IS I WAS NOT WANTED AND IS NOT WANTED AND WELCOMED IN THIS FAMILY, I WAS TAKEN HOME FOR THE MONEY USE, I AM NOT A DUMB PERSON.  I AM CONSTANTLY BEING PUNISHED FOR DEEDS I DID NOT DO AND NOT EVEN ONE PERSON IN THIS FAMILY DID NOT TELL ME WHY, NO THEY DID NOT.
The people who always never wanted me with anything they tried to take my children away from me behind my back and they always did send female socialworkers to my door and some of the socialworkers had dark shaded eyeglasses on and the family people always did under mind me, and they never had no love and respect for my children and I, the so called mother, her husband and her children always did have a serious personal vendetta against me for things I was not responsible for and the people always dictated my life to me. then she told me everybody though I was not going to have nothing to do with a black man and I was not like that at all, and when I met my children's father who is Asian and she told me they laughed and they did laughed that mother parent did tell me that and when I was forced to move back in her house because they scared me out of Milwaukee Wisconsin and that is where I purchased my home, and all of a sudden I was back in her house; she really hated me while I was there, she got in my face and told me when I had my house I was ON THE HIGH HORSE, I HAD REAL BAD BREAKS FROM THE START and somebody did destroy my happy home and they did set my home on fire and I did purchase this home in a neighborhood where I did not no anyone there at all and I did mind my own business and it was no boyfriend in my house, no it was not because that is a LIE, it was just me and my children. I paid the bills.

You don't take an unwanted child home, the people who did not want me as their daughter, they took me home to a complete hell whole, and All I Got Was Punk Bitch Abuse because of all the abuses they did against me and my children for nothing I was not at fault and I was used for a family scapegoat, otherwise grown adults put all their sinful blame on me, say it's my fault, they denied me my reality, they fed me a bunch of lies to believe, they pulled my leg, and they peed on my leg and told me its rainning, they really crammed vicious hatred down my throat and they really made me really sick to my stomach and my

The Worst Nightmares I Lived Since My Childhood

The Worst Nightmares I Lived Since My Childhood

Posted by charl1010 on July 3, 2012

The worst night mares that I had in my life was being sabotaged by family members starting from the parents who denied me since the day I was born and I gotten hurt by a number of surprised, extreme hatred and too much fright and the villainous and bias hate crimes that was done to me for several years to the point to where the so called mother and father deliberately brain washed me and they both misled me from the very start and the mother, they pulled me out of school from my kindergarten class and I was shift off to 949 W Huron and I found myself on my need all bend over while a male was on me behind me and that was very inappropriate touching and that happened in the grandmother’s home and this happened when I was taken out of my kindergarten class room and I never got to complete kindergarten at all. and I was kept out of school until I returned back to school at age 7.5 years old and I had to start all over again and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and I got picked on and bullied in grade school and high school they set me up for nothing I did not even do to none of them people at all. I was taken to where people did drink and gotten drunk and leaving kids behind that was very wrong and very dangerous I was used by the adults all my whole entire life and they made me a family scapegoat and a people scapegoat too and they controlled my life and I was hurt by the offense and several life threatening situations and the gossip and the ambushment traps. they treated me like an outcast and an outsider.
I was born in a seriously dysfunctional family where some people with problems that need to be addressed and corrected even before I was born; this problem have gotten me into a world of trouble with some of them people and also I have been having problems from my grandmother’s former husband, John McCoy’s grandchildren from the McCoy family and his grandson Ralph James, his aunts are Rochelle Saymore and Lauraine Gordan, these people are not related to us by blood at all. I was a young adult age 20 when my grandmother told me about an incident at the time I was only just a 5 year old baby girl; my grandmother Carmella McCoy was babysitting me for my parents. Barbara McCoy James had several young babies of her own, including Ralph James, both women left the home there was only just babies neglected and left behind and there was no adult supervision of the babies and there was no one there at all. I was the oldest at that time, I didn’t know anything about it. there was a new born baby boy about a month old named Markham James, The McCoy people keep blaming me for all of the adult responsibiities. the child was jumped all over and as a result the child died.
everybody said why didn’t Charlene stop everybody from jumping all over him at that time. They are still rentlessly angry at me for this. Those two women left the home to get a drink they were gone for long hours. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I at all, It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone. I am really tire of paying for something that was not my fault from the begining. that was the adult responsibilities and I am wondering why do they keep blaming me for this; this is not fair to my family and I. It is very to dangerous to leave small children unsupervised and home alone.
In Chicago IL
The summer July 11-1967,3 days before Carmella’s birthday I was only an 11 year old little girl a husky boy ran up to me and he hit me in my face with his fist and gave me a nose bleeding; I was wearing eye glasses and if he had broke my eye glasses he would have put my eyes out. He said I WAS ADOPTED.
We were at our grandmother’s home on the mother side of the family and I asked her for a glass of milk and she put an object it was a feen-o-ment pill in it and I looked under the glass and it was there, I told her I’m not going to drink that stuff, I gave it back to the grandmother, Tyrone Barber tried to force sour kool aid that was unsweetened down my throat,he threatened to whoop me with a belt I told him if he don’t leave me alone I was going to tell Nelson and Muff on him. they spat in my face, they spat in my hair, they forced me to dye my hair brown and they forced me to wear brown wigs for several years, I was not going to dye my hair black because I wanted to be myself and then one day I used COPPER TONE TAN product on my skin trying to fit this damn cursed family and THIS FAMILY STILL REJECTS ME AND THEY WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY WILL NOT BACK OFF AT ALL AND THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE AT ALL AND THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY WILL NEVER BACK OFF BOTH OF MY CHILDREN AND THEY NEVER WANTED NONE OF MY CHILDREN IN THIS FAMILY FROM THE DAY I HAD MY KID THEY JUST SIMPLY DON’T WANT ME AND MY KIDS IN THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL AND THEY ALL HIDE BEHIND THE CHURCH.
I gotten hurt being played with like a toy and an object and they always did treated me like I AM AN ALBINO COCK ROACH AND A WHITE RAT and they treated my children like they are COCK ROACHES AND RATS TOO and Clara Pumphrey she really always did hate my gut as if I did something to her no I did not do a damn thing to her at all. and she got a set up on me she hates me really just that much and I really do wish she didn’t invite me in her house like that she soaked the chicken and the potatoes in an enormous amount of salt,Clara did that on purpose I did not eat that Shit it was poison. and several years later.before I left the hospital with my newborn babies somebody swiched breakfast food on me at the hospital, I ordered regular food but they switched the food to oatmeal on me and I did not order no oatmeal and something was put in the oatmeal I did not eat that I thought something may be wrong with the oatmeal;. somebody in this family didn’t want me with my babies at all.
Chicago addresses
September 1976, the so called parents put me out of the home for nothing I done and I was doing house cleaning and Ronald and Patricia was not helping me,I was the only one working and the man launged towards me and he tried to hit again and he called me a yellow bitch I dropped every thing and I left the house for my own personal safety and the so called parents put me out of their home and I didn’t have no paid job and I didn’t have no other personal income and money of my own,they put me on the streets of Chicago, Illinois and I was much too decent for that.and the other sister and her husband had taken me over to grandmother’s home on the mother’s side of the family because I didn’t have no where to go and I never did run with too many people because I need room to escape;our grandmother had taken my bags of clothes and personal belongings and I never did run with too many people because I need room to escape;our grandmother had taken my bags of clothes and personal belongings and she took me in because I had no where to go
Between Oct and Nov 1980 on L and M street, there was a fire in a can behind my kitchen door, and I minded my own business there.
Nelson’s mother Rose who hated her daughter in law Carmella died January 1-1981 on NEW YEARS DAY. SHE DIED AT AGE 65. the same year.
Spring 1981 on South Lytle street a subsidized apartment, things looked ok for a while, till suddenly, someone tampered with the locks it was fixed, I had to change phone number and there was rocks pelted and balls bounced on my windows for no apparent reason and I minded my own business there too in May 1981 it gotten worst so I moved out.
1988 was the old address by the beach on West Pratt Blvd, one day June 7 1988 someone went in the basement and they cut only just my telephone wire, repairs told me that only my line was cut and I had just moved to this section 8 apartment in May 1988 and I minded my own busuiness there too. how can that program help? and I also need a support group and some mentoring and to help me get back on my feet; It was a total lost and I am not financially on my feet yet and where I am living the public aide dept will not even give me a medicaid card no matter what. maybe because I been used.
In Milwaukee WI
Spring 1994 I was in a first time home buyers program and October 31-1994 I closed on a home located at 2144 N 40th street Milwaukee WI 53208, January 1995 my garage was marked up and June it was broken into June 1995 and July 28-1995 the garage was sat on fire I called 911 and November 8-1995 a car was set on fire by the garage, made it on fire again and SOME BODY SAT A BOMB ON MY CAR GARAGE. January 19-1996, the day before Clara’s birthday A BOMB WAS REMOVED FROM MY ROOF AND EVERY BODY HAD TO EVACUATE FROM THE AREA I did mind my own business there too and I did not bother anyone there. I taken out a 30 year mortage on this home I lived there only just ! year and 10 months and I couldn’t take the abusive stress anymore and my family is disabled and they don’t need any of that kind of abuse.

IT WAS THE ABUSE BECAUSE I WAS UNWANTED BY THE FAMILY

Biology servers us right all it takes is a man and a female and it takes two to tangle,then why both the parents who both denied me at birth had no kind of love for me at all. I really don’t know if they are really my parents or not and why did they torture me for several years for nothing and for nothing I didn’t do to any of them people; I started kindergarten class in 1961 and they interrupted my stay in kindergarten school and I was not allowed to complete school, and I was nearly 3 years behind in grade school and that was not my fault either and there was a plan to keep me in
school untill I reach age 28 by the time I got out of school, I am so glad it did not happen that way because these people in this family hated me to the point to where everybody in the family was able to go to school and work and get paid without problems, I was the one who they picked on. they blamed me for things that the grown adults did before I even thought of being born and I could have died before I was born and what the hell did I have to do with the way I was born and why did them people bring me in this family when they never did want nothing to do with me from beginning, all the siblings are dark tan and brown skin and I am the only one in this family who has an ivory white skin and blonde hair and why did some of Carmella Barber people pick on me and call me all kinds of racist and derogatory names and dancing eyes and all I ever heard from them family people was Charlene is an ALBINO THIS AND AN ALBINO THAT and them people in this family always told me to dye that SHIT BLACK AND I DYED MY HAIR BROWN FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND I WAS FORCED TO WEAR BROWN WIGS AND I DID MY VERY BEST TO FIT IN THIS DAMN KIND OF FAMILY AND Carmella Barber always hated me because she never wanted me for her child and she isolated me and her sister Clara Pumphrey always controlled me behind my back and she is very dangerously sneaky against me and all of them treated me like child and they always did meddle in all of my personal business, they did get my business behind my back and they meddled in all of my afairs and all of them people pose a serious threat to my safety and they pose a serious threat to my children’s personal safety and them people man handled me and they man handled my son Alexander so bad to the degree and point where them people damn near killed him in July-28-2008 and what the hell did a man Sherman get in my son Alexander’s face and ask him is he keeping his nose clean look at all the other people in this family they not keeping their nose clean and all them people do is talk about me and my children and pick on me and my kids because them people did not want me in this family well I didn’t tell the so called mother and father to bring me to this family I didn’t just walk in their family that is not fair to me and that is not fair to my children. and why did people put bloody chicken bones in my door way and under my window when I was paying rent at 8921 N 91st Street in Milwaukee WI and when I relocated from that address in 2001, less than one month them people suddenly start putting citations on me with a vehicle that I never did operate and I never did drive the Van at all. all of them people did that to me on purpose and they really did do that deliberately and all them people did mary me off right behind my back and for several years them people always treated me like I was lacking in intelligence and like I did not know no better. This don"t make no damn sense at all; I got taken to a family by people who really never wanted me bring me into a situation that is very dangerous, wrong and very unfair to me and my children; I didn’t really deserve that at all and nobody bothered to explain nothing to me at all for several years and for that damn length of time and not one single person didn’t even bother to ask no kind of questions of what is the problem and what did I or what did Charlene do if anything at all. and it is only right, Hey I am not wrong at all, that is criminal torture and that causes mental abuse and a lot of disstress and heart problems and stress, and STRESS REALLY DO KILL. ESPECIALLY IT’S NOT MY FAUL AND THE FAMILY DID ABANDONED ME FOR DECADES NOW. I DIDN’T NEED THIS FAMILY FOR MY GUARDIAN THEY DON’T CARE NOTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL AND I AND MY CHILDREN DON’T NEED THESE FAMILY PEOPLE FOR THEIR GUARDIAN EITHER THEM PEOPLE IN THIS DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY CHILDREN EITHER. ALL OF THAT IS CAUSED BY VERY HATEFUL, VERY EVIL,MEAN,VERY HOSTILE AND VERY VERY CRUEL PEOPLE, IT IS VERY WRONG FROM THE VERY BEGINNING, TO BLAME AND PICK ON CHILDREN, ESPECIALLY GROWN ADULTS, YOU DON’T BLAME THE CHILD AND YOU DON’T BEAT UP ON THE CHILD, DON’T BEAT THE CHILDREN UP.ALL THEY GOSSIPED ABOUT ME AND THEM PEOPLE SPREADED ALL KINDS OF UGLY RUMARS ABOUT ME SINCE BIRTH FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND FOR THAT LENGTH OF TIME BUT EVERYBODY FORGET I WAS BORN AN INNOCENT TOO AND MY CHILDREN WERE BORN INNOCENT BABIES TOO.

THIS IS NOTHING BUT UNPROVOKED ABUSE AND UNJUSTIFIED PUNISHMENT FROM THE START; then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn't deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children's father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from the start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the sa
this is nothing but unprovoked abuse and unjustified punishment from the start,then why no one never even bothered to tell me why and not one single person even bothered to tell me the truth and I didn't deserve to be rejected,blamed and punished for me being born with albinism and what about when I was born an innocent baby like all other babies well the father turned his back on me and he was not emotionally available for me to the point to where I ended up looking for DADDY and my children's father is a daddy figure by more than 30 years my age and that was because I needed LOVE NOT HATRED; they just punished me and they watched me suffer for the deeds that I did not do. I was not wanted by this family at all; then why was I treated very differently and cruely by the family and every thing is my S from the start and was picked on for several years and they made fun of me and they treated my children the same way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don't seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don't even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I'm not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that's not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don't have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don't even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don't have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don't talk to me and the siblings don't want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don't feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children; they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON'T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON'T. NO THEY DON'T.
me way too, and my son Alexander was so man handled by them people ,they nearly killed him and I had to take my son Vincent from a program because they picked on him too and his files were missing from a day program, there was a safety concern for all 3 of us. and for several years the gossip about me was so serious to the point to where it has caused me great reputational harm and to the point to when I want to communicate and work with other people I am greatly ignored to where a lot of people don't seem to care to understand and to listen to what I am trying to explain. Every body treated me like a retarded child and a little girl and every body all up in my personal business and all up in my personal life . they don't even accept me as one of their own relative and I can see that. I can tell, I am not no domb person, I'm not like that and I was abused so badly I had night mares, I even had a low self esteem because of the derogatory and racist name calling that hurted me and for years they called me that, well that was not my fault, I was born with Albinism and that is an inherited genetic condiction and that is not my fault at all, and some of them people said that is not in the family and that's not my fault either; I really do wish that the people who never wanted me in the first place just leave me alone altogether and just leave my kids alone all every body did was just use me and my children and they always did just walk all over me and my children and them people never had no love for me no way.that because I was notthing to them people and my children are not nothing to them people either and what they think of me, them people think the same way about my kid ,they don't have any kind of love for my children because my children are nothing to them people. I am wondering why when I needed to be removed from the home for my own protection and my safety why no body came to remove me from the that family that was not right and that is not fair to me. I gotten blamed,abandoned,punished and bullied and the people on Carmella Barber the mother side of the family,they never taken the time with me and the people on Nelson the father side of the family, they never taken the time with me either; It was not my fault and it was not right for them people to just use me for their excuse. I never even lived a normal life. How can anybody have a normal child hood,adult hood and future, with my freedom being very restricted. and I did go to a medical front office training school program and that was sabotaged on me too,things got all changed around. I did lose the SSI income in September 1997 and I was not able to ever get back on it no matter what. and I came back to Chicago Illinois in spring 2003 and I did apply for a medicaid card and they never did give any. and I did apply again in 2011 the letter came back,it said I was not eligible for any,cash assistance,SNAP food stamps and no medical card at all and I don't even work because I am very sick right now and I have health issues and I need help and no one is willing to help me out; It is a darn crying shame I don't have a family that I can trust, my health is being neglected I did a lot of volunteer work and unpaid work I tried to help the community in Milwaukee,WI the best way that I could but I should have been help too many years ago and I gave selflessly far too much of my time to others and for others but I am wondering can anybody volunteer their time to help me out please I AM CRYING OUT FOR HELP can anybody please help me out and it is a crying shame because I had no steady income since I lost my suppmental income in September 1997 and the hatred against me really did put me at a total lost and I nearly lost one of my children and the parent don't talk to me and the siblings don't want nothing to do with me either, that is the whole family. I don't feel really confortable with them no way because they never did approve of me from the beginning and so it is best for me to just stay out of their way. it is really rough on me and this is not too good. I really do need to get a break and a make over. They sneaked and married me off behind my back and changed birth dates on me and they changed birth dates on my children,they are really very very hateful to me and my children; they NEVER DID HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON ME AT ALL AND THEY DON'T HAVE NO KIND OF MERCY ON MY CHILDREN AT ALL EITHER NO THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY DON'T. NO THEY DON'T.

THEM PEOPLE DID GOSSIP ABOUT ME

Theresa died on April 14, 2003. This is Diane Barber Ross’s daughter. Diane Died on November
9, 2006. Theresa’s mother. When Diane died nobody called me, but the woman who was supposed to be a mother to me called everyone else she didn’t call me because I was nothing to her, when I called her Diane’s home she was already dead for about a half of week. I called Diane’s other daughter named Tammy, she was very surprised I didn’t know about it and Tammy asked me you don’t know. I told her no because no one didn’t tell me anything about it at all. So she told me herself about her passing away. The obituary had everyone elses picture on it, Nelson Barber and Carmella Barber children picture on it including my kids (my son Alexander and my son Vincent) except for me. They left me off of her obituary on purpose and Clara Pumphrey have pictures of everybody including mysel. they never accepted me as a relative no way I can see that. and they put a cat on it instead of me. My children are not their children, they are my children .them people act like they got guardianship over me and they act like they got guardianship over my children  I hate that shit, they act like I don’t know what the hell I am doing but the mother she pulled me out of a kindergarten classroom and I needed that socialization, I did not deserve to be isolated from other children like somethng was wrong with me and Nelson died February 18-2008 and 5 months and 10 days later about 161 days This family been on my babies ass since the day they both were born just like they been on my ass, I’m not dumb and I’m not stupid.
When my son Alexander was in Warren Park 6700 N Damen Ave, he mysteriously gotten away from here on July 28,2008 and ended up in a hospital and he was not looking so good at all. He was not eating, not drinking any fluids, his teet was clenched (jaws was jammed). He would not and he could not talk to me at all, and his eyes was rolled bck to his head, I did see that. he was in Illinois Masonic Hospital and  he was floating between 17 different hospitals and nursing homes and treated like trash. as a result of that; there were bruises, scars and holes poked in his legs I did not do that to my own son. that happened when he was suddenly in someone else’s place and care. he was not at my home when all of this happened to him.and not no one even talk to me about it; my son had to be put on life support and a feeding tube. I will never forget all of the pure hatred and hell them people put me and my kids through over the years, they blamed me since I was only a baby girl and for grown people responsibilities.
them people they continues to insult my intelligence this is not my family. Well them people never did treated me like a family. The so-called parents blamed me for everthing that I didn’t do and she punishes me
for her misdeeds; everything my S***, she blames me since the time of birth and I was born an innocent baby just like every other baby who were born as innocent. Then why did she blame me in the first place. I got blamed when I was an innocent baby and that isn’t my fault. Clara has pictures she never had any kind of love for me and the respect for me either. She always hated me for nothing I did to her and I never had anything to do with Clara from the beginning. She never even gave me the time for day some strange reason and unexplained excuses the mother never supported me and assisted me in finding a paid job for me, even when I always wanted to work while I was a youth and jobs for
the summer school break time. But everyone else had a paid job. Her excuse was her husband
income was too much but the program was for me and other kids who wanted summer paid
jobs. I had do without it while I was 13 years old. I sent my auntie on the father side a letter.
She wanted me to spend time with her I was not allowed to go. But when I graduated from
Calumet High School, I got picked on there too, and words and rumors spread around bullying
there. In June 1976, after I finished the school in less than 2 months. Next month after I finish
in July 1976; Carmella’s Sister name Clara called the house, I was a grown 20-year old woman,
she talked to mother. They wanted me and Ronald who was mentally ill to spend 2 weeks in
her home and I went with him, and she came to get us, but she didn’t take Patricia with her. It
should of been Ronald and Patricia. Not Me!
I was taken into a family where I didn’t belong. (But that’s so wrong!)
I don’t like the way I am still living. I am wondering how would anyone feel if people in your
family start teasing you and calling you some kind of names. You wouldn’t like it, the parents
will be so angry and mad at you and they didn’t tell me what was it about me that really made
them so angry. Them people always gossiping about me over the years. People don’t want to
listen to me. I felt like I was kidnapped in this damn family. I got a darn right to speak up and
explain and express myself this don’t feel like my family to me because they didn’t treat me
like a relative. I wasn’t wanted by them. They treated me very different from everybody else
in this family because I didn’t fit in and they treated me so darn hostile and so damn criminal.
I didn’t count or matter. I was only a mouth to feed and I was anything but a person to them
people. Them people always blamed me for grown up misdeeds and their behavior. I got hurt
by their misdeeds of grown up behavior. I had no business being around them people at all.
And is everything my Sh*t? No it was never my S***. Everybody focus on me and targets me.
I was taken to a family where I didn’t fit in. And as a result. I couldn’t adapt in the family any-
where. Not at the home and not at the school and not even on Jobs. Why nobody never took the time and talk or explain to me, I am a person also. I am not less than a person, couldn’t somebody said something. Said anything at all?

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I am a person I am not a thing and I am not a toy.

I am really tired of this family criminally manipulating me. my whole entire life they always controlled me to the point to where they dictated to me how to live what to do and what I cannot do. THEY POLKED THEIR NOSES IN MY BED ROOM and THEY TREATED ME LIKE A CHILD and I did have serious trouble finding a decent paid career with good benefits and vacation time with pay and when an outside person tried to help me get a good paid office job, I was suddenly let go on the same day I started and I could have made a few friends. I was put out of work on purpose, I been sabotaged again. LOOK AT THE MEDICAL SCHOOL I WENT TO THAT GOT SABOTAGED TOO. I CAN'T SUPPORT MYSELF AND THIS FAMILY DON'T CARE IF I LIVE OR DIE BECAUSE THEY DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME AT ALL, WELL THEY DON'T WANT ME TO WORK AND EARN MY OWN MONEY THE WAY I GOT A RIGHT AND ILLINOIS STATE WILL NOT EVEN GIVE ME NO MEDICAL CARD SO I CAN'T PAY MY DOCTOR BILLS, THE EYE DOCTOR AND I NEED A NEW PAIR OF EYE GLASSES .AND I NEED DENTAL HELP AND NOT ONE PERSON WILL NOT EVEN HELP ME AT ALL. ALL THEM PEOPLE PUT ME AT A REAL FINANCIAL DISADVANTAGE, I CAN'T RELY ON NONE OF THEM PEOPLE. THEY DIDN'T ACCEPT ME IN THE FAMILY. I WAS ONLY JUST ANOTHER MOUTH TO FEED JUST LIKE AN ANIMAL. September 1976, I didn't obtain a job, they put me out of the home on the streets of Chicago Illinois and I went to the grandmother's home.she took me in and told me Charlene at least you are not out of doors and I called the so-called parents home on Thanksgiving day 1976 the grandmother got oo her daughter's case because her husband was talking smack and I can come back to a dangerously hostile home enviroment, if I just sit down and keep my mouth shut and was dangerous and very disrespectul I was a 20 year old young adult women and I had a right to speak my opinion without getting hurt or killed by them parents and anybody else in that. the mother's mother told me don't go back there.she did take the telephone and got on the mother's case because of how they treated me that was very wrong and very dangerous some of them mothers do turn a blind eye when it comes to their man. Patricia Barber Metcalf she never did accept me for her sister at all. she made her father pick up a broom stick in my face, he damn near slammed the broom stick in my face and he told me to take off my eye glasses, I was nearly scared to death and he didn't ask me no questions no he didn't give me a chance to explain anything; he was always irritated with me because of Me being the white man's child. that was not my fault. (HE TOLD ME NEXT TIME I WILL KNOCK YOU BLACK) them people always stayed really angry with me for things that was not my fault and THE WOMEN WHO SUPPOSE TO BE A MOTHER TO ME, SHE TOOK ME OUT OF KINDERGARTEN CLASS AND I DIDN'T GET A CHANCE TO FINISH AND COMPLETE.AND I WAS NOT IN NO HOSPITAL, i didn't need to be isolated away from school and peer socialization that was not fair to me at all it was very wrong from the start. and I was not allowed to attend until I was age 7½ years old and age 10 I was put in a 3rd grade classroom and then they made me repeat the 3rd grade class that put me behind even much further in school, she didn't want me to learn absolutely not a damn thing, just be a dumb ass because I wasn't nothing to her no way. I can never talk to her and I could never tell her any thing at all and when I only asked her to take my name off of her home she said I was getting her into me and Patricia's S***I was not told any details about the home at all and I don't want nothing to do with nothing she got at all and she never showed me no document of that with my name on that house and she said she was not going to take my name off of the home I will stay out of that altogether because I was not treated like a family at all.

I know this family is not my family I was in a first time home buyers program. I had a right to purchase my own home. Don't shoot me like an albino animal. Why didn't that B-witch leave me behind and why don't them people just leave me the HELL ALONE. them people hurt me really bad they did put me through far to many changes for nothing that I done and the mother didn't do nothing when all of those students were picking on me at the high school and when I wanted to transfer to another high school.she acted like she had no concern and no time to deal with me and I had left the high school because I got tired of them students picking on me and bullying. I was being abused at the home and I was being picked on and bullied at school, a child can not learn too good like that under those hostile condictions, that was not no co-incident they just didn't want me to make it thats all. I am not no animal and I am not an object without any intelligence. I am a person also, a woman who never wanted me for her child, she was not supposed to take me to that darn family like I was an animal just to use me and throw me away like trash. Patricia Barber Metcalf called me to ask me in the fall 1994, she asked me about my personal home and suddenly in January 1995, Graffiti has been written all over my garage. I was always a shy and a quiet, I never bother no damn body I was not the trouble maker in this family and the people REALLY HATED MY GUTS FOR NOTHING BECAUSE I WAS NOTHING TO THIS DAMN FAMILY AT ALL, They didn't want me in their family, they never accepted me in their family at all. THEY NEVER HAD NO KIND OF LOVE FOR ME AND THAT IS FOR NOTHING I DID NOT DO TO NONE OF THEM PEOPLE IN THIS FAMILY AT ALL. AND I DID NOT HAVE NO KIND OF PEOPLE SUPPORT FROM THIS FAMILY AT ALL. ALL I GOT WAS PURE HATRED WITH ALL KINDS OF HATE CRIMES DID TO ME FOR NOTHING I DID NOT EVEN DO TO ANY OF THEM PEOPLE AT ALL, THAT WAS BECAUSE I WAS NOT WANTED AND I AN STILL NOT WANTED IN THIS FAMILY AT ALL. I REALLY REALLY DO HATE THAT I WAS TAKEN TO THE WRONG FAMILY, I DID NOT HAVE NO POWER AND I DID NOT HAVE NO CONTROL JUST LIKE ALL OTHER INNOCENT BABIES. I REALLY DO REGRET BEING TAKEN THERE AND I REALLY WISH THEY HAD LEFT ME BEHIND AND JUST LET ALONE SO THAT I CAN HAVE ME A GOOD FUTURE WITHOUT being rejected,denied,unwanted,refused,hated for things I did not even do to no one at all and I should not had been used, blamed,punished abushed and bullied and punished with vigilante style BSL.it was criminal.dangerous and it is very wrong from the very beginning and from the start. YOU DON'T JUST HURT PEOPLE FOR NOTHING THEY DIDN'T DO TO YOU AND YOU DON'T GIVE THEM NO CHANCE TO EVEN DEFEND THEMSELVES, YOU ARE VERY WRONG DOING THAT BS.IT IS WRONGL. They set a halloween day on me October 31, 1994; a move in date. This is punishment on me too. THEY BEEN USING NUMBER 7s and 13s on me for several years because they are really very hateful and hostile against me and towards me for nothing I done to none of them people and I could not live in this family without all of that hatred against me for nothing I did.

All this because I was taken in the wrong family, them people are superstitious to the core.

There were several fires set on the home a mover date that was on holloween day. And they been using labels and tracking numbers on me and they was putting labels on my kids too and they also put tracking numbers on my children too. I don't know what these people in the family think I am and what I am made of.

Hey people don't forget the woman who supposed to be the mother took me out of kindergarten; I didn't get a chance to finish kindergarten school level at all. Why would a Black mother take her child out of school? What to hide the child, to hide me, I think so. Black people have fought and died for their rights and their children rights to attend school and to get an equal education.

When I was taken out of school. I was put several years behind in school and I got picked on too. (targeted) That was very deliberate. Even though I always minded my very own business while I tried to work a very low paid job some years ago ,and I never did bother anybody there some people did start trouble by harassing me and they did pose a serious safety threat for nothing I done and for nothing I did not even say about any of them at all, I am not like that. know I don't think I can never work out side of my home because of the reputational damages this family caused me for nothing I did not do to none of them people.

Child Abuse by Magisto